Mom: You never do anything for me.
Mind: I fake a smile.
I hide my problems from you to avoid you getting stressed.
I cover my scars.
I don't talk to you so you don't have to put up with me.
I pretend to be mentally stable.
Mom: I'm making dinner! would you like something to tide you over?
Mind: ooo, dinner sounds good! Haven't eaten all day!
Ana: You're seriously considering eatng? Have you looked in the mirror lately? Chicken or hipbones honey, you decide.
Me: No thanks, i'm not hungry
Girl in the glass.
purgingmylifeaway: When you get what you want in your struggle for self and the world makes you king for a day, then go to the mirror and look at yourself and see what she has to say For it isn’t your mother or brother or friends whose judgement you must pass the person whose verdict counts most in your life is the one staring back in the glass you can go down the pathway of years ...
So i took this test
To see if i was depressed or not..and it told me i was bipolar? I dont have severe mood swings…i’m just numb. I don’t hate myself, i just want to be perfect I’m NOT Bipolar. I’m just a perfetionist who goes into depressions when i fail.
sleepisheronlypainrelief: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=cETHTPeGvEc Every single person feeling suicidal, needs to watch this. The most beautiful video i have ever seen/heard. Please watch.
So 2 major tests today plus work
And i feel super sick :( Going to be hard to concentrate on memory recall when you’re trying not to spew all over the paper.
Normally: Eat, digest, be happy, move on. Abnormally: Starve, binge, feel guilty, purge, starve again Me: Starve, binge, Feel guilty, too scared to purge (phobia), starve again, feel happy I’m Abnormally normal. What…
Stress Stress Stress
I just dont know how to deal with it anymore… As soon as i finish one thing, more things pile up. My skin turns against me and forms pimples that decide not to go away. I get too hungry one night, and eat something, but wake up the next morning with a rash because i was allergic to something that was in what i ate the night before. Professors keep piling on work, my body continues to look...